We know as Christians, that God loves us infinitely, and regardless of what we choose to do with our lives, he never stops. We also know that God created us in his own perfect image and loves us just as we are. Right? With this knowledge, do we need to trust that God doesn’t make mistakes, therefore we have no right as humans to feel unhappy with the way we are?
We all have different personalities, different idiosyncrasies, different tempers, natures, sensitivities and so forth… and with age, our personalities are moulded and shaped by what we are surrounded with. And God still loves us, to my understanding – regardless…
I don’t like my hair colour, I change it. I don’t like my curls, so I straighten them. I don’t like how I’m too trusting, so I become cynical, etc… Am I still the apple of his eye? I wonder these things because, I think sometimes if I look in the mirror and feel ugly, or if I get down on myself because I may have come across a little too harshly toward someone I love (from a place of love), then am I not trusting in God’s creation? If I wish to be a different way… is that me not believing that God’s way was ‘the right’ way?
A friend of mine is going through some stuff and it really made me sad. Two friends, actually. Who don’t believe that they are beautiful as. they. are. I know sometimes I have my fat days, my days where I feel repulsed by my reflection — as a woman, I think it’s normal – but I don’t ever truly sit and fester some deep seeded feeling of revolt and let myself for one second believe that I am ugly. I know God doesn’t create anything that isn’t beautiful… and I just remind myself of that.My friends aren’t happy with who they are – and I can understand, we’re all works in progress, but … when someone does have that doubt about who they are, or a confidence so low that they truly feel sickened by their image, then it makes me feel bad.
Cos, God doesn’t make anything that isn’t beautiful, and I don’t befriend people who I don’t believe are beautiful.
Anyway, on a much lighter note… it’s amazing to be able to see once again. And when I take my glasses off, I notice the difference. It’s great. The blurs are gone hehe. And I have almost completely got my independant online store up and running without too much stress. Maybe next I can tackle content management systems. It will not get the best of me.
Here’s me with my new dork goggles.
