Things are looking up, I think. In the sense of, I feel slightly better than I did three days ago. I haven’t been very productive, in all honesty, but I have been finding things to keep me busy. Even if it’s just TV and Rosary stuff, it’s better than moping around thinking of how dodgy things seem.
I think the real grace of this period has been that my pray-life has gotten a thousand times more stronger. Prayer is something I have a back-and-forth struggle with, but I make time each day for prayer as soon as I wake up, during the day, and later in the evening. Starting the day with the prayer to St. Michael has been extremely helpful as well as a morning offering which, dummy over here, has never put too much effort in to. Just as importantly, I have received many graces for persistently praying the Divine Mercy and the Prayer of Health to St. Raphael the Archangel… Thinking about praying so often used to make me tired and I’d wonder how I’d even be able to make the time… but … it’s no strain on my time and it was silly for me to ever selfishly think it could be.
I also spend some time journaling (in a physical book) at the end of the night (sometimes) and write prayers down there and special intentions. I have prayed recently very persistently for God to just give me whatever I need to make the way to where He wants me to be, and I feel like over the past few days, things are finally moving. But… baby steps and in God’s own time, right? Still…
Let me leave you with a photograph of my desk — basically it sums up my day in a nutshell. TV, prayer, food and Rosary-making lol!
Does anyone else watch Heroes? I was in Adelaide almost 2 yrs ago now and my friend made me watch 2 episodes which happened to be the season finale of season 2. And I got in to it, but at that time it wasn’t on DVD yet and I couldn’t be bothered to download the episodes. When I was in Thailand in August I bought season 2 on DVD but thought it would be pointless to watch since I hadn’t seen any episodes of the first and would miss half of the story (even though I enjoyed the 2 ep’s I watched, I was really confused!) … Hmm this story is already way too long and boring…. Eh, so yeah I bought the first season today and my Mum and I have been watching back-to-back episodes.
Hiro Nakamura is soooo adorable! and like in Lost, I like the Korean guy, Ando (I know he’s supposed to be Japanese, but he’s actually Korean.) … very cute. 
Meanwhile, I made my first good profit at my Divine Treasures store 
God bless you all, friends. Expect something a bit more substantial in a few days when I get my full groove back!
3 responses so far ↓
Sharon xx // November 15, 2008 at 4:55 am
Ahhhhh, so there you are creeping up out of the ‘gloom’ – I can see you now waving as you appear out of the mist that surrounds the lonely place where you were. I was saddened by your last posting – was at a loss to know what to ’say’ to you so I just prayed instead.
I’ve been where you were so often and it sucks huh?? Great news re your Divine Treasures, way to go girl xx!!!!
It’s a sign of a strong faith I always think if bad times bring you closer to God rather than driving a wedge into your faith. Yes, all in God’s good time, “Be still and wait patiently for Him to act” but hmmm how frustrating that wait can be at times?? As the saying goes ‘enjoy where you’re at on the way to where you’re going’ – don’t waste a single second my lovely.
Hugs to you and know that when you’re lonely we’re all only an email away, and always with you in spirit and remembering you in our prayers daily.
with love
Sharon xx
Sharon xx // November 15, 2008 at 5:45 am
ps I’ve linked your store to both my blogs – will you check the links work for me?? Hugs
S xx
AutumnRose // November 16, 2008 at 12:20 am
I’m glad you’re feeling more positive, Jess! Hope you’re having a great weekend. Me, I’m just sat here putting off chores!