Placed it.

The long and the short of it?

I’m pretty lonely.

A bold statement to make, I’m sure, but one that is an honest conclusion as to the way I have been feeling lately. I’ve been really down recently, as I’m sure it’s been documented, but I haven’t been able to pinpoint exactly why. Thank God my bordem was alleviated today when a good Catholic friend of mine said he was free to catch up. We were walking through a shopping centre and the comment was made that it was hard to meet someone (as in a girlfriend or boyfriend) that you feel comfortable with, that you are on the same level with, who is good for you – etc… I said that I felt the same and I’m at the point where I’ve kind of given up. I was reminded that I was only 25.

I don’t like it when people say that to me. My closest friends are all a fair bit older than me, by ten or more years. I hang out with people in their 40s. Or, on the otherside of the spectrum I have a lot of younger friends who I love to be around because their hearts are starting to evolve in to God-loving ones and it’s amazing to watch.

But at 25, my Mum had two kids and a first home. All of the people around me who I went to school with all have children, marriages… I’m not jealous and I know if God wills it, it shall be done… but– my human heart yearns. I live in a country area, the people my age are … I’m sure, not all there. (I am originally a city girl ), I live 2 hours away from the city. I drive there once a week usually to see aforementioned friend, my friends here are two tradesman handimen kinda guys that are over 45 and I can only relate to them to a certain extent. The people in my church skip a generation and there is no one from my age group around mostly just the elderly. I am not working and even when I was, my place of work was littered by younger people whinging about life, school, not being able to go out, no money cos spent it all on alchol, etc…

It’s just so… lonely. I don’t have anyone out here that I can just go to to see a movie, go for a chat, a coffee, etc. I’m not necessarily looking for a husband this second, but I am looking for a friend, either male or female… who is like-minded. Who I don’t have to keep my guard up around… Eh.

Basically, I need to be out of the country. I should never have nested myself here to begin with. I’ve racked up a few little debts. I guess my best bet is to find a full time job after Christmas, pay out my debts and then sort out a place to live. It’s the only thing I can think of right now… The hard part is finding a job that will be okay for me.

Meanwhile. I need to proactively put together a list of things that need doing.

May I remind you all of this;

http://divinetreasures.wordpress.com
http://divinetreasures.etsy.com
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=33444667419

Or … kindly put the following on your page to link my stuff.

link it to; http://divinetreasures.wordpress.com plz would be a huge help and would give me something to do to get some orders in.

All in all, I’ll be okay. I know I will. I always am.