Finally, I opened my little Catholic treasures store. If you are interested in anything please just ask me or email me at the address that I have provided on the other site. Also, I have started a facebook club for it as well as a club on xt3.com. I have a small request, if you own a blog, could you add the link http://divinetreasures.wordpress.com or the image to the left (linked to the blog url just mentioned) to help me out? If you are not linked to my blogs already, let me know and I will happily link you up real nice.
I have had some chest pain today, this worries me a bit. Generally I’m a bit of a hypochondriac, but not without good reason. I have heart complications, but fortunately, I think this is just muscular and due to the fact that I have been hunched over my coffee table for the past three days doing nothing but beading and watching movies. I am praying for the intercession of St. Raphael the Archangel. St. Raphael is amazing. I felt a real pull toward him during my recent trip to Thailand… I prayed daily for his intercession and it brought me great comfort and great trust in God.
I am trying to discern whether or not to go back to “real” work. I despise using that expression because it indicates that I’m being a bum, but I’m not. There are a lot of reasons why I don’t do a regular 9-5pm job, but I don’t want to justify myself. Whatever path I choose to take seems to get blockroaded by something and I pray to get through it but usually it’s something really unfixable. I have tried many different avenues, but the areas in which I am qualified are no longer really safe for me to work in. I am qualified to work with children, but unfortunately each time I work with them, I end up sick — this is normal for childcare workers, but because of my respiratory problems, I end up with dire illness rather than someone elses colds. I miss the kids so much — but I don’t know how worth it the money and the company is.
Money isn’t an issue — well not really. I earn enough money through what I’ve been doing (data entry, web design here and there) to live on a week to week basis, but after I pay bills and living expenses, there is no money to save which is a problem if I ever have a plan to get anywhere with my life. I’m 25 and feel like I’ve done absolutely nothing. Perhaps I’m being really hard on myself, but it’s so hard to feel like this. I’m not so worried about what other people think, but i can’t say my whole situation doesn’t feel anything short of lame. I don’t want to be 30 and still living with my Mum and her husband.
I just want the wheels to turn – I want to be earning enough money to sort things out. I want to be able to get rid of debt, take on as much work as I can, be successful and remember God each day… I don’t even know where to begin and I have been praying about this for so long, but I just fear that it’s all self-inflicted. I don’t know… Just really tired of feeling so bad about things.
Anyway. I will finish writing my testimony tomorrow…
Are the details in the fabric? Are the things that make you panic? Is it mother natures sewing machine? Are the things that make you blow… Hell, no reason, go on and scream. If you’re shocked it’s just the fault of faulty manufacturing.
